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Yet i will rejoice

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 01:28:32 GMT

The prophet Habakkuk resolves to rejoice no matter what happens. “Though the fig tree may not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines; though the labor of the olive may fail, and the fields yield no food; though the flock may be cut off from the fold, and there be no herd in the stalls—Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. The LORD God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, and He will make me walk on my high hills”
(Hab. 3:17-19).

When the disappointments are enormous, when the blows are relentless, when all expectations are dashed, that is when we need to say, “I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation!”

Extracted from http://www.konghee.com/www/category/daily-devotion/

This certainly encouraged me a lot. A lot. And i really appreciate all the prayers, morning texts, care, CD (compilation of p&w) from various people here. Thank you Evelyn, Melissa, Shinyee, Bernard, and all the churchies. Thank you Samuel too for listening to my complaints over and over, for all the talks, for staying up with me..

(Edited)
I feel so blessed? I was so hungry and wished food would drop from sky somehow either that, or go starveeee till night (because i'd just ended my exam and gotta prepare for next exam tmw. i'm also quite lazy to cook and wash) and Shinyee left a lunch box outside my house a few mins ago? She's my angel!?! God.. you love me.. (':

Real time

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 11:21:38 GMT

Tweeting@ http://twitter.com/superxue

Faith

Fri, 23 Oct 2009 03:16:42 GMT

'Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us'
:D wow.

'Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible!'

Real

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 16:01:48 GMT

I love love love! (500) days of Summer.
Best romantic flick after so long and my new hot fave aft Revolutionary Road. I can watch it over and over and over again. Like seriously. Swearz. Right Samuel Tan?!?! ;)
Summer's vintage dresses, Tom's awkward vibe and hair. Their chemistry. Artsy Fartsy cinematography. The dance moves. The soundtrack. The script. What not to like!

Anw, i've got a Shepherd, Shin Yee :D:D after so many years. So happy! Really. She cooked rendang and curry chicken for lunch ytd. Yumz. I know i'm gna learn a lot from her life. Watched movie at indooroopilly too with Janna, Shermain and Melissa and had 10pm Dim Sum. Egg/Custard Tart is solid good.

Derailed?

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 10:16:32 GMT

God, you'll reward those who're faithful and righteous right?
Even though it may be an ethically right thing to do, i resolute to please you ;)

Sing Praises

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 10:32:44 GMT

Sang this for the past 2 services. :D
It's all for you God.

Steward of Time

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 00:03:35 GMT

Oh, the temptation is actually a landmark experiment on delayed gratification.
Instant gratification vs Delayed gratification in which i often find myself struggling with and would eventually pick the former for pleasure's sake.
Need to be disciplined to carry out my duties, my quiet time for i know the cost of not doing so is hefty.

Anw mid sem break's here! Everyone's away (D:) while i'm stuck in Ipswich to catch up on my school work.

Faith

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 16:06:23 GMT

"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus"

Still a work in progress. This is gna be an Adventure.

If i can put into words..

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 16:04:39 GMT

Not too long ago i had a really humbling session with God where i saw how foolish i'd been.
It dawned upon me that everything i had, (have and will have) were gifts from God. He gave me abundantly/extravagantly when i asked and then, took away the things which i thought was rightfully mine.
Gna give all due credits back to Him. Tear down all these acts of self righteousness, admitting my mistakes, failures and weaknesses so that His power could rest on me.

"You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name.
..Every blessing that you pour out, i turn back to praise.."

How to live

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 08:08:25 GMT

I woke up early on a Friday. Made my way down main campus alone for Financial Mgt peer tutoring class. Did my quiz which i expected to get full marks for because i double-checked with the tutor but i got 9/10. A 9/10!!! ): I can't explain this lousy feeling in me.
Essays are due soon. I really wna do a Great job Asap so i have enough time to send for proof reading etc.
I feel the heat. Guess it's good cause i need a little push.
Alright gna nap before i start working on my essay or maybe let my hair down on a friday and date sam for a stephen chow movie over skype aft our powernaps lolz.

Specially dedicated to Samuel Tan Keng Wei

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 17:42:50 GMT

I found you in the least expected moment.

Now, even though we're lands apart, i wna publicly show my affection to you over here.

You are a rare specie, one of a kind. I think youre the sweetest guy ever!!!!!!!

I love how you remember every detail abt me, abt us, abt what i say and what we do. I love how you can really surprise me with actions/gifts/words even though i always say(think) you cmi. I love how sensitive you are as a guy how you can always see in others' perspective. How tactful and calm looking too. I love how honest you can be towards me. We are all imperfect people but you taught me to love &forgive and hence brought forgiveness to a whole new level. I love how resolute you are, how adamant we can be in abiding certain principles. I love how we can learn from each other because and despite of our differences. Love gels and complements. I love how patient/tolerant you can be and how you can never really be That angry with me.
And how you always Always Always never fail to see the good and the best in me. How you believe me when i lose faith even in myself. Thank you(:

Grew out of his boy shell, fallen repeatedly, picked himself up and still learning learning learning...
Everyday i get to know more abt you, everyday i fall in love again and again. I always tell God wow srsly what an amazing guy! I am so blessed.
I pray that God will continue to watch over us shower his blessings on us as he plays a role in both our lives. Now, Challenges and Hurdles.

Loving you is a choice,
Samuel, i love you.
Thanks for being involved in my life :D

Note to xue.

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 16:42:07 GMT

Today is my nation's birthday. I miss SG. I just had a webcam convo with my family and i miss them so much miss my chatty mommy too. They had crystal jade for dinner (i am in need of good food). Samuel went for the parade with his family. He told me via webtext that it was damn awesome.
And me, i didn't go out to celebrate. A mistake. I shouldn't audit life go out xue stop hiding/hibernating. Miracles are happening everyday everywhere. And i wna be awed, by every bit. To be blown away..

The World is My Oyster

Sun, 09 Aug 2009 08:38:53 GMT

In Oz, Brisbane, Ipswich. Into the 3rd week of tutorials and everything has been good thus far.
The hiatus was unintentional i figured i needed to take time to adapt before forming quick judgements.

Few things i love having lived in a suburb for a month:
I love the warm sun tog with the cool air, I love the clouds, I love the 10mins walk to uni, I love my cosy warm room where i spent most of my time in, I love the personal space and time.

All self sufficient.
I picked up cooking i needed to prove that i do have a flair for culinary and that my home econs scored an A1 il never forget the disatisfied look on Samuel's face aft eating my soggy maggi mee. Yen can cook ok. And so i boiled soup and curry chicken solo for the first time in my life. Did grocery shopping, laundry i miss you mommy and lugged a newly bought printer all the way home. I impress myself sometimes.

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 02:20:49 GMT

This is gna be explicitly gross but i really need to jot this in this journal cause it's sucha experience. I'll spare the minute details. One hot day, i felt giddy throughout a jerky bus trip stomach turned upside down gastric pain felt and had diarrhoea and shat in the bush under overhead bridge in broad daylight had shit in my pants cried almost fainted flagged cab in highway but no cab wna pick a sickly looking about to die girl.
Ok this is convulsing. But when i think back now, it's really really funny?! Thank god for the overhead bridge, and i thank god i'm alive too! Anw, i'm recovering (from my 1 week illness) but still very weak. I aim to do cardiovascular exercises because i realise i'm always short of breath eat well because my gastric's turning worse. Health is really impt.

You are my freedom

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 13:59:30 GMT

What would i attempt to do, if i know i won't fail?
Maybe futureme.org will tell me in years to come that these won't be that important. And that what's left is faith, hope and love.

Sun, 21 Jun 2009 10:19:02 GMT

Hahaha this is funny!
Sick for past 2 days aft sending Karryn off Boston at the airport. I've gotten almost all H1N1 flu symptoms my fever comes on and off head aches throat hurts clinic's closed i really pray it's just seasonal flu.
AND NOW, S&V are at paradiz playing L4D )': they must be playing No Mercy's Expert. W/o me!!

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 20:22:00 GMT

-Another insomniac night due to a long powernap in the aftn.
-Ok cant wait to meet Samuel later Vincent totally robbed his nights away from me these few days and he's gna stay at his place till Sat.
-Been playing L4D frequently this week. With Zhige, V and S.
-I love Katong Laksa with cockles? The one opp Bugis Pontian Wanton is damn good youll never get sick of it. Weekly staple.
-I finally got hold of Fuji Instax Mini in pink!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gotta ultilise to its max so please don reject me if i want a picture with you okokok? :D
-Did my evisa and will be heading Raffles Medical for health+xray checks tmw.
-Prolly getting a luggage too? But i can't rly decide (See pic). I really like this pink squared one but it's too small!! I may get the Silver. Until and Unless i find a better one.
-Ok time for bed!

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 23:31:44 GMT

:D Popped up at Sam's hay on Wed only to see a surprised look pasted on this half naked guy. <3 HAHAHAHAHA! I hope you like everything Kengwei!!! Before that was Chompchomp with Jean. Despite the degree of her outward change, she is pretty much the very same Jean i know then (:

The world and even the church isn't all safe. Men are imperfect men sin men fail. I can ramble incessantly abt how upset i was with some people and their behaviour/actions but what rights do i have to justify too when all sins no matter big or small are Sins in the eyes of God. I must have been too sheltered in my teletubbyland to think the world is All good. For me, Be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves. Ok.

9

Thu, 04 Jun 2009 23:08:06 GMT

Forgiveness (2)

Wed, 27 May 2009 00:00:45 GMT

Samuel shared this with me couple of days ago.
Story extracted from Sermeng's blog.

Jack took a long look at his speedometer before slowing down: 73 in a 55 mph zone. Fourth time in as many months. How could a guy get caught so often?

When his car had slowed to 10 miles per hour, Jack pulled over, but partially. Let the cop worry about the potential traffic hazard. Maybe some other car will tweak his backside with a mirror.

The cop was stepping out of his car, the big pad in hand. Bob? Bob from Church?

Jack sunk farther into his trench coat. This was worse than the coming ticket. A Christian cop catching a guy from his own church. A guy who happened to be a little eager to get home after a long day at the office.

Jumping out of the car, he approached a man he saw every Sunday, a man he'd never see in uniform. "Hi Bob. Fancy meeting you like this." "Hello Jack." No smile. "Guess you caught me red-handed in a rush to see my wife and kids." "Yeah, I guess so."

Bob seemed uncertained. Good. "I've seen some long days at the office lately. I'm afraid I bent the rules a bit -- just this once."

Jack toed a pebble on the pavement. "Diane said something about roast beef and potatoes tonight. Know what I mean?"

"I know what you mean. I also know that you have a reputation in the precinct."

Ouch. This was not going in the right direction. Time to change tactics.

"What'd you clock me at?"

"Seventy. Would you sit in your car please?"

"Now wait a minute here, Bob. I checked as soon as I saw you. I was barely nudging 65." The lie seemed to come easier with every ticket.

"Please, Jack, in the car."

Flustered, Jack hunched himself through the still-open door. Slamming it shut, he stared at the dashboard. He was in no rush to open the window.

The minutes ticked by. Bob scribbled away on the pad. Why hadn't he asked for a driver's license?

Whatever the reason, it could be a month of Sundays before Jack ever sat near this cop again. A tap on the door jerked his head to the left. There was Bob, a folded paper in hand. Jack rolled down the window a mere two inches, just enough room for Bob to pass him the slip.

"Thanks." Jack could not quite keep the sneer out of his voice. Bob returned to his police car without a word. Jack watched his retreat in the mirror. Jack unfolded the sheet of paper. How much was this one going to cost? Wait a minute. What was this? Some kind of joke? Certainly not a ticket. Jack began to read:

"Dear Jack, Once upon a time I had a daughter. She was six when killed by a car. You guessed it -- a speeding driver. A fine and three months in jail, and the man was free. Free to hug his daughters. All three of them. I had only one, and I'm going to have to wait until Heaven before I can ever hug her again. A thousand times I've tried to forgive that man. A thousand times I thought I had. Maybe I did, but I need to do it again. Even now. Pray for me. And be careful, Jack, my son is all I have left. Bob."

Jack turned around in time to see Bob's car pull away and head down the road. Jack watch until it disappeared. A full 15 minutes later, he too, pulled away and drove slowly home, praying for forgiveness and hugging a surprised wife and kids when he arrived.

Forgiveness is the best gift i've received. And i think it's the best gift i can give too.
Keep forgiving..

Tue, 12 May 2009 21:16:55 GMT

There's only one thing two do three words four you. I love you

Tue, 12 May 2009 21:03:41 GMT

some defining moments <:

Something more important

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 18:46:18 GMT

I finally mustered (spelling. oops) all my courage to face this HAHAHHAH need to get this off my chest RIGHT NOW!
Was quite perturbed by 2012 Doomsday Prediction. I've never thought death could come this close, could be that real. Global catastrophes- epidemic flu tsunami earthquakes even daily minor mishaps accidents. People dying every minute. They do affect me.
Sry if i made you feel uncomfortable. I tried brushing those thoughts aside too yknow like rather than dwelling and living in fear, i think i shld get happy make the best of everyday appreciate this gift of life i have. Maybe just get practical too? How to be prepared and not get caught off guard on His second coming.

Anyway i've found out smth more fearful than Doomsday. To be judged and found guilty by God. I want to fear God more than anything else. I want to have the right kind of fear.

Love that Binds

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 03:18:07 GMT

In lieu of Family Matters, shall rave abt Malaysia's Petronas Adverts. Off Stomp.com.sg.
This is my personal fave. I know it has been ard for some time, but it never gets old.
Mommy and Popo, I love you two! Hugs!

Was late for 8 days due to strenous exercise last Fri. Hate cramps :S

Gtg down Serangoooooooooon yey.

Miracle Maker

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 14:32:37 GMT

MY GODMOTHER OFFERED TO AID ME IN MY STUDIES, FINANCIALLY AND UNCONDITIONALLY!
I'm so glad i obeyed my granny today. Yknow i was like so worried about the cost. 80K i srsly don know how many years must i slogged to repay the debt. And i rem expressing my concerns to Jolene in camp hahaha yey God must be listening to our convo there and then. Really really wna thank my God who provides (: